beautiful mess

here i am.

stand in this loneliness.
in this cold calm and silent nite.
remembering the past.
remembering those days.
the day when everything is going alrite.
the day when everything is so simple.
the day when everything 'will be ok'.

now, in my loneliness.
when there's no more 'ok' in my life.
when everything ruined out.
here i am.
trying to struggle.
trying to survive.
just on my own.
'cause this is the phase of my life that i have to passed.
those matters making me strong in this 'wild world'.
and i called it beautiful mess.